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karen. kaks. 19 years old. only child. filipina. san jose. bay area. graduate of silver creek HS c/o 2003. loves sleep and food. easily annoyed. lazy. goof. weird. student at deanza college. guitar.

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TRAGEDY
As i walked in, i saw an old man on the side. He sat in his wheelchair, looking as the incoming patients came in the building for their appointments. i sat down with mother, reading a magazine, waiting for my name to be called. i couldn't help but glance a few times at the man, who was fidling with his hands. it seemed , too, he was waiting for his name to be called. i see something in his face. sadness it seemed. time passed by, and a nurse went up to the man.
"are you waiting for your ride, sir?" the nurse asked politely.
"yes. i'm waiting for OUTREACH. They're supposed to come between 3:30-4:00pm, sometime between that timeframe" the man said, looking up at the woman
"when was your appointment?"
"2:00pm," the man replied

my heart sank when i heard his answer. "2:00pm" i looked at the time. it was nearly a 3:45pm. this dear old man had been waiting for more than an hour for his ride. i thought about how he must have felt all that time. feeling so lonely. i hid my face from the other patients, as tears came down my eyes. to imagine..he's been sitting in his wheelchair, all alone, all that time, with nothing to do. i imagined how he must have felt. pain. i tried to stop my tears, but i was overwhelmed with what he must be feeling. The nurse, a great person, called OUTREACH to make sure they were coming to pick up Robert. the sadness i felt was also with her. on the phone, she told the man that she was on hold, trying to get information on their whereabouts.

finally, they a man came. he picked him up, and it was such a relief to see that this man would finally get home. knowing that he was fine, i still felt pain. it hurts me SO MUCH when i see elderly people in pain or sadness. it just gets to me, that sometimes they can be neglected. the elderly that grow old alone. alone in their homes. no one to talk to. that hurts me the most. lonelyness...

in english, we're reading "the myth of sisyphus". a line states:
"but it is only tragic at the rare moments when it becomes conscious"
when i entered the building, i didn't think much of the Robert. i thought he was just waiting for his appointment. when i was conscious of his situation, that's when it became a tragedy; when you are conscious.

10:01 PM .

OUT OF THE BLUE today was early dismissal day. i got off at 11:43am and justine and her sis get off at 12:28pm. i wait for them, since they need a ride home. usually, i'd go do some homework somewhere. this time, i felt like just driving around. so when i got out, that's exactly what i did. i drove around my school area. went through some roads i haven't driven in a long time. as time passed by, i decided to go to STARBUCKS. i realized that i didn't have money on me, but still, i had time to kill so i went in the parking lot for the heck of it. and when i did, i saw my old friend that i haven't talked to or seen in a long timeee. homeboy alvin. anyways, we while driving our cars, we said hi to each other and drove off. on my way to school, thinking about the past, it hit me. it's crazy when i think back on it. sophomore year. he was kinda like an "older bro". we'd talk ALL the time about things. i remember being up late at night just talking about life and what's happened to us in the past, with family, relationships, and friends. he's had a big impact on my life.. he's taught me so much and made me question things i do in my life. if you read this alvin, hahhha whatup dawg, i know, sorry i'm making a big deal out of it, but i just wanna say thanks for everything you've done for me. -crazychubs

7:55 PM .

COME AND SUPPORT i'm doing a project for my physics class. come here and support!! please! i need as much help as i can get..thanks! click here

2:31 PM .

COLLEGE NIGHT tonight is college night at INDEPENDENCE HIGH SCHOOL(my bf's school). represntatives from over 100 colleges, universities, community colleges throughout california and the country will be there tonight. there is only 1 university i'm instrested in, and only 1 community college. me and justine are gonna go to jd's house early so we can hopefully beat the crowd.

i need to make up my mind on what i'm gonna do about college. there are only 2 choices. i'm torn. *sigh* november 30, 2002 is just around the corner...

3:07 PM .

SATURDAY NIGHT "my last day of work...wow..finally thisday has come, " i thought to myself, as i was cleaning up. by scheduled shift was 11am-7:45pm. we closed at 5pm. from then on, all we did was clean. jd got out at 6pm, so he just waited in my car for me. i found menial things to do, like cleaning the counters, just waiting for time to pass me by. it finally arrived. i went to the cash room, got my final paycheck for the hours i worked that day, and left.

me and jd went to get some popeyes. got our usual, and went to his house. it was getting late, so i went home. as i took my usual route (highway 680), i found traffic. usually, there is never traffic. i thought little of it, and proceeded. as i was in the right lane, i looked in my rear view mirror and saw flashing lights. as the vehicle proceeded to pass the cars on the shoulder, i identified it as a highpatrol. i call my mother and warn her i'll be late, telling her that i think an accident occured up ahead. 30 minutes later, i'm practically 200 feet from where i was 30 minutes before. (may 4, 2002 all over again) i decided to get off the next exit. more highway patrol cars pass me by, and my patience was getting worse. instead of going on the shoulder and passing everyone (since a lot were doing that), i decided to tough it out, since i HATE when people do that (they should wait like everyone else has to). mother called me up and told me that there was an accident near the exit i was gonna take. an hour later, as i approach the next exit, i see a bunch of highway patrol. the blocked off 3 of the4 lanes with flares. this seemed to go on for a while. i got home in a little over an hour, which would usually take me less than 10 minutes.

SUNDAY i woke up around 8:45am to the sunlight in my face and the sound of my parent's voices talking in the kitchen. i went there, and mother showed me a news article of what happened. they suspect that a man jumped off the overpass and was hit my many cars. dozens of people called in saying that they hit something like a man or animal. they got some different stories, like, the man was waving his arms, so it's under investigation. crazyyyyyyy.

i call up jd, and talk to him. he then tells me it's only 8:01am! it's daylight savings time!!!! oh man!!! i sooooooo forgot. haha, i woke up at freakin 7:45 on a sunday. woooweee. that morning, we went to our work to turn in all my uniforms, went to turn in applications, and went to the mall to buy a few things. my babe bought me a scarf...wooohooo.

NOTE: if you don't already know, i have a tendency to forget things when people call me up when i'm sleeping. i may forget little tidbits of the conversation, but still remember that they called me up. i've NEVER EVER forgotten a full conversation. i'm sorry jd for tonight..i'm sorry all that had to happen

12:18 AM .

CHANGE OF PLANS what became of me and jd going to the movie became into ALL of our friends going to the movies. jennelle talked to me and said she wanted all of our ohana to go out. we all met at the movies. we all gathered. oh man, there was a whoe bunch of us. i was starting to feel like a bopper. yeck. but yeah, we bought tickets to watch JACKASS. me and jd headed to the inside first. when we came to the theatre, they were checking IDS! what the heck. we showed them ours, and we got in. we tought about ourother friends. not all of them are at least 17. blaCH!! we called each other and decided just to watch another movie.

we wanted to watch, THE RING, but that got sold out. the next time for that was like 9 something, but we decided to watch the TRANSPORTER...ohhh mannnnn! that movie has some dope ass action. the beats the used were dope too. the main guy, frank, what a nice bodyyyy. the movie was good. keeps you hyped up all throughout the movie. the storyline get kinda bleh, but the action compensates for it. nice movie =]

note to self: why do people have to assume things???

11:44 PM .

JACKASS so today's friday. jackass the movie! woohoo. the RING. hmmm..i've heard a lot about that movie. heard it's hecka scary... i don't know...i'm too scared to watch it.. =\

i need a new jobbbb!!!!! someone please hire meeeeeeee!!!

1:33 PM .

FINALLY after all these years, i FINALLY have a burner! haha..yeah..that's right. i've been pestering my mom for one for quite a long time. when me and jd were at FRYS ELECTRONICS, i saw a good deal. it was a SONY 40x12x48x for only $59.99!! plussssss a $20 rebate. wooohoo! i bought it sunday after work.

monday, i picked up jd from work. he got our SADIES pics. haha. he SOOO has a fake smile. so funny. i'll scan it later. we got some jack in the crack, and headed to my house. there, we deleted like, 200 of my songs to free up some space. =\ my precious songsssssss...oh well...then he installed it for me. what a great boyfriend. he's giving me another program though. he says the one that it comes with sucks. we did a test run, and it didn't work. rar! it's soooooo temptingg! i wish i can burn some cds.

11:08 PM .

AWWW!!! Private SALAMAT...AKA FREDERICK aka "my friendship dance date" just signed my guestbook! aww!! i didn't even get to say goodbye to that guy..so it was a surprise to see his entry. you see, from my past blogs, i mentioned he went to the army. he just finished bootcamp and he's gonna get trained in maryland. after that, he's gonna be stationed in germany for 3 years. ahh. he's gonna visit in december. i miss that guy. frederick, if you read this, good luck. stay strong

9:58 PM .

HOMECOMING BONFIRE so yesterday, friday night, was our bonfire. first, me and jd did our "friday thing" (paychecks, buy stuff)...stoped by his house so he could change. grubed on his momma's homemade banana nut bread...MmMmM...my mom cooked spaghetti, so we stoped by and got a huge bowl for the road. OHANA - jay + jovver went to the bonfire. it was ok. veryy COLDDD though..the person that sang the national anthem...oh man..i don't know what our school was thinking. me and jennelle + the whole school was laughing..haha..that was a good laugh. we watched the skits and some of the fireworks. oh yeah...MARY was a great ROBIN (as in BATMAN AND ROBIN) after, we all got hungry, so we went to DENNYS..MmMm..i got my usual..we had a nice "late dinner"..lots of laughs. oh how i love my friends...went home and went straight to bed...talk about POOOPED!

today: work. i got stuck in traffic!! ahhh!!! how i hate traffic. but luckily, i got to work in time. on our way home, jd bought me a cd visor...woohoo! thanks babe

9:50 PM .

ORTHO so i went to the ortho on tuesday. my god, my wires are sooo weird. i've shown them to braces-wearers, and they haven't seen wires shaped like mine. rar!!!! they're digging into my gumssssss!!!

yay. 1st grading period is overrrrr! my grades..oh yes..for once i'm satisfied. in all my classes, i got As!! yayy..but in calculus, i got a C. booo ....but i'm still proud of myself....i'm finally on track again

1:51 PM .

DANCE went to the dance. lots of couples were wearing suspenders..that really got JD mad..hehe..took pictures...got married...hah..the dance was boring...but i had a nice time with my babe.

me, jd, abby, jennie, and camille went to jack in the crack. later, jovver, jeff, and grant came. mother called and said it was getting late...so me and jd had to leave, cause he had work bright and early..arghhhh...i hate it being the person that has to leave early

i don't wanna goooo to workkkkkk..ahhhhhh

10:52 AM .

SAT II so today was the day. sat II. me and justine went to mcdonalds to get some breakfast. went to my room and our friend francis was there. took the tests. tired as helll. i think i'm gonna retake them in december. wait...i mean..I KNOW i'm gonna take them over

after, i went to the bank to withdraw some money. you see, once again, i went over on my cell phone minutes. mother saw the bill and freaked out. she demanded that i pay, there i was at the bank. i went to raging waters to turn in my uniform. they took my name tag and id card!!!!! arghhh!!! i wanted to keep them as a remembrance of my first job. HA!

now, the dance is tonight...woohoo..

work tomorrow from 1pm-9pm!!! ahhh!!! i still need to do my homework! and i know i'm gonna be tired...bleh!!

2:27 PM .

WHAT A DAY! friday. oh yes. the last day of school of the week..and of course, payday. i went to pick up JD at his school and we bought our tickets to his SADIE HAWKINS dance tomorrow. after, we went to get our paychecks. then i went to my bank (washington mutual...which sucks)to deposit most of my money (cashing it leads to me spending it on food). then we went to bank of america to cash his checks. then we went to the store and got some cargo shorts for us to wear. thennnn, we went to a video game store cause JD wanted to buy a game. it's pretty popular: KINGDOM HEARTS. that game is hellllla dope. we once were at jan's house, just watching friend JAY play...soo fun. anyways, the guy at the store hooked him up and gave it to him for 50 even. then we went to JACK IN THE CRACK...got our usual tacos.

headed to his house. his little bro CJ is down here..yayyyyy..it was kool seeing that cutie again. anyways..me cj, chato, and jd were just chillen in their room, watching chato play. by this time, it's getting late. i didn't wanna leaveeee. it was fun watching chato play, cj was soo cute saying little comments, and it was nice being with my boyfriend. ahhhh. this day was great.

CJ is the cutestttttt....haha..i said, "awwww...i don't wanna go home yet"...he says, "don't..you can be my big sister"...hahhha...the cutest...he's gonna leave tomorrow morning...i'll miss all his "kaweeen"s

8:48 PM .

HI this page needs a change. i've had this layout for a while. blah. school is blah. i need a weekday job!!!! hopefully they hire me. =\

college college college. that's all i here. this is getting me depressed. college applications, transcripts, SAT II....rar!! i'm still confused about what i want

7:38 PM .

FASHION SHOW yesterday after school, me and jd went to go pick up our paycheck. we stoped by the mall to get a hat that he hecka liked. next: the fashion show. oh man was it fun. my bf was soooo pretty in that tux. i wasn't even thinking about the girl he was with...just at how pretty he was. after the show, i had to go home cause my mom wanted me home before 11pm. everyone else went to DENNYS. rarrrr!! dennnnnnyyyyys. got home and fell asleep. jd called when he got home...and of course i remember little.

today: first day of work. picked up crystal and got there a bit early. we were just chillen there, talking to our old filipino coworker. he's kooool. it was nice talking to him. he was at our orientation and training, so it was nice getting to know him. there are a lotttttttt of filipino workers in fooods. I HATE WORK....it sucks. today i was supposed to be trained more, but they just told me what to do and left. I HATE WORK. they didn't even give me a break when they were supposed to. WORK SUCKS. i want to quit, but i figure i'll only have 5 days of work left. better just tough it out....i still hate it though.. AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

i have work tomorrow early. i have a bunch of hw. i still need to study for my SAT II i'm exhausted. i need more timeeeeeeeee!!!!

10:25 PM .

YESTERDAY originally, jd was gonna come to my house and we'd just chill and do homework. plans changed and me,jd, stine, rachel, and abby just chilled at justine's house. we ate our KFC and did our hw. kinda weird being in a quiet room with all of us. that neverrrr happens. but yeah, i didn't get home in time to watch FRIENDS. darn.

"i know my calculus...it says U + ME= US......CALLLLLLLCULUSSSS!"

2:04 PM .

BOREDNESS i finally sold my $60 worth of fundraising i needed to do for senior class stuff. well, actually my bf sold most 90% of it at his school. now i got a mug especially made for c/o 03. yay. thanks jd for helping me.

things are looking good in school. grades up. woohooo! i'm prettyyyy sure i got like, a D in calc. boohoo

got home today at 12:30, like every normal day. did some hw and ate some food while i watched MAURY. when i was done, i got bored and just started cleaning the house. cleaned the floor, washed the pots and pans, got the laundry and did another load, and cleaned my own room. i layed on my bed and took a nap.

during my nap, i got a few calls..some of which i don't remember. JD called me and that was the end of my 5-hour nap...and woowee did it feel goooooood.

now i have to study for an open-book physics test tomorrow. did i mention that he lets us retake the test? and it's only gonna contain the questions that we missed. oh yeah, on the retake, the question will be exactly what it was on the original test. oh, what a teacher...

1:27 AM .

GOOD GRACIOUS last night was the MAKING OF THE VIDEO for Christina's new video. GOOD GRACIOUS!!! i never knew anyone would be that slutty. yes, she can freak and do all those moves, but there is a certain place where she can do all that. there's no need for her to flaunt it all over tv. i knew she changd her image and acted slutty, but i never thought she would stoop that low. it looks as if she's doing this just to gain attention and cause controversy. her video is like a rated pg-13 orgy. yes, guys may get turned on...but oh man..what a shame..she's one of the few that really have the voice.

4:11 PM .

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